A Mustard Seed

We all get busy. Busy with school, work, friends, family, and life in general. It’s crazy. But we should never be too busy for God. And I think I learned that the hard way.. August of 2014, I slowly became too busy for God, too busy for reading the Bible and talking to him on a daily basis like we all should. That lead to some poor decisions and consequences; which sucks. But in November of 2014, my youth group announced that there was an opportunity for 9th-12th graders to go on a mission trip to Mexico! I was super excited about it and knew I had to go! I’d always seen others’ photos from mission trips and thought, “wow wouldn’t it be cool to spread God’s love to people all around the world!” When I signed up for that trip I knew I had just jumped into something that only God could help me accomplish. I was so excited to see God work in my life and in the peoples’ of Mexico. Leading up to the trip, we had meetings about medical forms, what to bring, getting to know each other better, and we were also given a devotional centered around the book of Philippians.

“Life is 50% what happens to you and 50% how you respond to it.”

When we received this little booklet, at first I thought, “I’ll do it if I have time, I’m just too busy right now.” So about a week went by and the devotion hadn’t left my backpack. But I pulled it out one night and started reading and learning about how Paul was imprisoned because of sharing the good news of Jesus. Just imagine if we lived in a country like that today, how would we respond to the lifestyle of Christianity? Would we put our faith in God like Paul did or would we “play it safe” to stay out of prison? It’s really something to think about. I know I thought about it for a couple days, but what I really thought about is how his story can apply to us today. Maybe we won’t get put in jail but we will get made fun of for our faith, but we need to look past that. We need to start speaking out to the ones that need to hear the simple, “Jesus loves you, have a good day” or the old friends that still don’t believe you when you say that God changed your life. We should never stop showing them God’s love through our actions, our words, and our lifestyle.

And that’s when it hit me. That’s when I realized that I wasn’t as close to God as I wanted to be and some of the friends I had weren’t the ones for me and I really needed to get back on the right track. By the end of November, I was reading my bible more, starting devotions on my Bible app {which I highly recommend for daily nuggets of God’s word}, and growing closer to Him.

So moving on towards my mission trip, I was really really excited, I was fundraising like crazy! My best friend, Abby and I held a bake sale at a big event which helped us both tremendously!

Then it came, 7 days before the big trip. The mission trip everyone was excited about. I was knee deep in stress and anxiety. I was having second thoughts about going and Satan was really trying to knock me down. I was praying like crazy that this would all just go away and that I would calm down but it wasn’t happenin’.

Then it was Sunday, the night that we would go to a hotel near the airport, that morning at church all of the pastors, staff, various volunteers and connection team were crammed into one room all ️praying over the students that would be leaving early the next morning. I was really trying not to cry because I was scared. I had so many negative thoughts about this trip. When my family was dropping me off to leave it was awful, I was a mess, I didn’t want to go. I was so worried about all these little things that weren’t even going to happen. My pastor kept telling me, “if you go home, you’ll regret it, you’ll see all of the wonderful photos of all of the places we went to help and you’ll know that you had the chance to be there but you weren’t.” And that was harsh {sorry Pastor Hal} but it was so true. I’m so glad that I went on this amazing trip and fought through the stress and anxiety and had the faith during the trip that Paul also had because God definitely changed my life.


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sweet tanya from the sucopo village


my girls, always by my side

“I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me”

Philippians 4:13

“He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭17:20‬

A huge thank you goes to the people who helped me get on the plane, face my fears and have faith.





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